what if i?

Hello friend,

We're back! We've really missed being here with you. And we find it hard to believe we're right in the middle of Holy Week already.

Since our last post in December, some major health stuff has been piling up on us. We'll be able to update you on some of it a little later.

In the midst of all this, the Holy Spirit has been bringing Greg's song, What If I, to our minds for weeks now. We have felt His persistent nudge to post it this week. So, we're trusting Him for what He has in mind for this.

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Jesus of Nazareth had everything,

yet allowed himself

to be made nothing.

An intentional

downward

free fall

So says Chapter 2 of the book of Philippians.

I wrote this song years ago as part of a drama scene...

posing this question:

what if I were to make the radical choice to follow Him down that road, disengaging the gears that push my ego upward toward notoriety and acclaim?

In the years since I wrote and recorded this, I often do a check in my spirit:

how far down His path have I ventured?

am I keeping up with Him...

or, actually, down

with Him?

can I go further?

why not?

Push play below to listen to

What If I.

What if I

let go my grasp

of all the things

that raise me higher

What if I

gave my life

as a gift

blessed and broken

for the poor

of every kind

poor as I am inside

Would there be less of me?

Would I become a nobody?

Or would I finally be

the best of what You had in mind

for me

What if I

crucified

all my pride

and upward striving?

Put an end

to dreams of fame

bigger things

and social climbing

Made myself

more teachable

reachable

invisible

Would there be less of me?

Would I become a nobody?

Or would I finally be

the best of what You had in mind

for me

One finger at a time

loosen my hold on the pride

that I cling to

Then walk me

by the hand

lower and lower

down to the places You go

cause I need to go with You

wherever you take me to

What if I

had seen the way

You endured humiliation

Seen You go

so deathly low

to secure

my own salvation

How could I

live a lie

pretending I'm

up here so high

Give me the heart to see

how You became a nobody

and showed me the way to be

the best of what You had in mind

the rest of what You had in mind

the best of what You had in mind

for me

what if i

crucified

all my pride...

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This is the road... laying down

whatever we grasp to steady ourselves

apart from Him

Somehow…

this is where life turns

What am I still holding onto?

Do I trust Him enough

to loosen my grip…

and go with Him?

These are the questions we're grappling with.

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Thank you for being here with us.

Peace, kindness and hope to you this Holy Week...

Always with love, gregrinne and heidi

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Photo Credit: Thank you Mark Volle for transporting us to Mammoth Lakes, CA through your photographic wonder!

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